I belong to a message board, and have for a few years now. The problem is this community which I once LOVED and cherished is now an uncomfortable place. The cliques that develop are natural, but they've become more the norm, and I think I'm not alone in feeling a bit excluded. For example, one person could post every fart and snot bubble her toddler makes, and the member coo and gurgle with excitement. I post something cute that happened in my home, and get only a couple of responses. The women (it's almost exclusively women) that I like there, I REALLY care about. The ones that I don't? I truly despise them. With a community as large as this particular one, there are bound to be people you dislike, and I could deal with that, however I've reached a point where I feel ignored and criticized rather than supported and welcomed. I've put way too much energy into being supportive and caring even when I didn't particularly care for the person, simply because I don't like to hurt people's feelings, but now that I'm not getting the same respect I have decided to throw in the towel. I can pinpoint the turning point, I'm NOT sorry if some of those women didn't approve of my decisions during my first marriage. I'd be lying if I said it doesn't hurt. Bad. Like "breaking up with your best friend" (this is where I MET my best friend, so at least one good thing has come from it) kind of bad. I decided to go quietly, without any dramatic goodbyes, so I'm posting this here for a couple reasons. If you are a member (you know who you are) please feel free to email me, I'd love to hear from a few of you. Other than that, I needed to vent my hurt and frustration with the loss of a support system that has been there for so long. Hopefully, this will give me that closure and relief I'm wanting.
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Outgrown and moving on
Posted by SeeingDouble at 10/05/2005 12:28:00 PM
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